WIERD ???

nopee juss me

i smile when im nervous . laugh at death . juss to cover up my real feelings . it's like my emotions
are confused on what they should do . i am loud without knowing ... i cant hear myself btt
im far from deaf . iam always happy . to the point where when im sad ppl think its a major problem .
ppl rely on my happiness to determine thier happiness . iam a role model . btt sometimes
i juss dnt feel like being the person ppl look up to . i make mistakes... yeahh im not "purrfect !"
i comb my hair too much . im surprise i still have some . i get nervous when my nails arent clean .
 soo i constantly clean them . i think ppl watch my every move . that why i try to be good .
i have a wild side deep inside me . that will probably come out soon o . O . im afraid of failure . becuz my family expect soo much of me . mustard &lays potato chips floats my boat . i dnt have any addictions . excepted im addicted to cleaning my room ... well nevermind thats an addiction . streetlights amaze me ... how do they know when its dark &theyre suppose to come on ??? i pretend to be dumb when i meet boys that are not up to my intelligence . i hate the phrase "stop acting white" im acting &talking normal ... maybe if we werent at this ghetto highschool you would think so . i love organizing things . ppl think im stuck up or juss crazy . which one ??? nevermind,, freak what ppl think .
i wish i was rich . btt then again i dnt ... becuz i know ill let money take over me . i sometimes trick myself
into believing the truth as though it isnt . i ♥ ♥ btt i dnt want it ... i juss want the benefits of it .
if you knew those benefits you would think im nasty . wrong ! im as pure as they come .
i love pink &green . btt black &white defines me . i love my life . i adore my friends . i love fashion .
btt i dnt say it becuz everyone &there momma thinks theyre f a s h i o n experts . soo i juss dress cute &pretend
like i dnt really care ... lolx it works . i use to hate being darkskinn . until i got to highschool,, now i l o v e my skin tone .
i believe words can only hurt if you choose to believe them . think about it . one day i want to tell it all to someone i trust . my secrets &past . btt the world is definitely not ready for that . i hate when ppl expect you to feel sorry for them . haha . switch my hair they all copiers . switch my gear they all copiers . i hate biters . soo i make sure not to copy anyoneee . i could really like something btt the fact that everyone is on the samething ... makes me change my mind . i love nighttime . my fantasy : play on railroad tracks at nite with my friends . all of these things all what make up me . im mariahh &im in my own world . thats what makes me truly different . i dnt let ppl try to ruin my world . thats what make me a confident.darkskinned.5'1.righthanded.18 year old.future focused.positive.God loving.female.born on september 21.
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